Dear Me,
Have patience.
I could end this letter right now, but wouldn't that be boring?
I'll elaborate and say...have patience for the future and all things unknown. Sure you thought you'd be in a different spot in life right now, but did you have a vision for what that'd be? No. Not really.
You always thought you'd be an editor at a magazine, but you tried the journalism path, and its cutthroat nature didn't really suit you.
You certainly never saw yourself as a coach, let alone a college coach, but there you were, skirt suit and clipboard in hand for two years.
Balancing the demands of a graduate program you loved dearly and managing the tasks of your coaching job proved to be a true test of your multitasking abilities and endurance. You made it.
Along the way, you ran in some races, overcame a serious case of heartbreak, traveled, became best friends with your mom, started reading again, reconnected with some genuine friends, cooked, baked, ate, went broke, and most importantly, fell in love all over again.
I'd say things pretty much worked out for you, wouldn't you?
Don't ever forget you had an outstanding summer this year! After graduation 2.0, you lived a dream life, which consisted of twice-daily workouts, cooking and eating incredible food, traveling all around the country to your friends' weddings (including two trips to your so-called second-home), soaking up all the sun the northwest sky had to offer, walking/talking/errand-ing with your mom, trying new things like Bikram yoga and yogurt!, laughing and loving any and all things with Taylor, experiencing family loss as your grandpa passed and gain as your brother married the love of his life, sitting on pins and needles waiting for your sister to head into labor on Labor Day (still waiting on this one...), networking with outstanding professionals in the Portland area (really learning and understanding just what job will be right for you when it comes along), being able to enjoy local events and happenings, and checking off all the things to do you'd been storing up for two years as an overworked, underpaid graduate student.
You're refreshed. Your mom never wants to hear you're stressed or worn out ever again. You've done your fair share of gallivanting around, and you're ready to be contributing to society yet again.
But yet, you're frustrated. You're slinging groceries right now, instead of writing and editing professional pieces of literature or business copy. It's okay though. It's just an in-between gig. A stepping-stone. That's what people keep telling you, and that's what annoys you. "I already went through this phase once before...back when I was 22." You can keep responding in this way, or you can hold your head high and take comfort in the fact that your life always seems to work out.
You're going to look back and laugh. You're going to want to delete this post the minute the dream job actually comes calling. It'll probably be sooner than later, and you'll be embarrassed you spent so much time complaining.
Don't let the things you can't control overpower those you can. Namely, your attitude. Enjoy the work that brings in your paycheck. The people you work with a friendly and kind, and everyone knows you love food--and you can't forget to mention the fact that you get a discount!
Your dad loves to preach the quote: "Sit back and watch life like a movie." Maybe it's time you took a deep breath and did just that.
"...the many paradoxes of happiness: we seek to control our lives, but the unfamiliar and the unexpected are important sources of happiness." Thanks, Gretchen Rubin. I'll keep this quote in mind, too.
Just have patience. Life just keeps getting better, and like always, the little hiccups serve as great stories and experience for future endeavors.
Now go and enjoy the day and your random grocery store work schedule, which permits you to indulge in a run
and your favorite boot camp, as well as lunch on the couch in front of your Food Network friends.
Sincerely,
Kate